Love and Trust or Fear? Which Will Do First?

Romans 8:34-35 NLT "Who then will condemn us? No one--for Christ Jesus died for us and was raised to life for us, and he is sitting in the place of honor at God's right hand, pleading for us.  Can anything ever separate us from Christ's love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death?"
Hebrews 5:8-9 NIV  "Son though he was, he learned obedience from what he suffered  and, once made perfect, he became the source of eternal salvation for all who obey him..."

Oh, Lord!

You have again been teaching me not to fear.  I have to say that it has been not as easy as I thought it would be.  You have given me tests and I must confess, I have not done as well as I had hoped.
Monday night was the first test.  My husband always has lights on in the house and the front porch when I come home in the evening, especially if I am coming home late from choir.  Sunday AM we turned the clocks back to EST from DST.  Now when I leave work at 6, it is dark already.  Monday night I came home to a totally dark house.  Of course the Enemy tried to immediately imagine the worst.  Dick's car was in the driveway.  But, I pulled the car so I could find my way to the front porch and get into the house clicking lights on as I went.
Lord, I must say I was SO relieved to walk to the bedroom and find my precious hubby awaking from a nap!

Yesterday at work I got an email regarding a dear one that was in ICU again.  Again, the Enemy wanted me to think the worst, and I did.  I left the office crying to walk and pray- and You led me to a wonderful "Sister" in another office who took 10 minutes to pray for and with me such a powerful and believing prayer.  I was able to walk out of the office refreshed ad encouraged to be able to finish my day and go to a wonderful worship time.

I know I am learning obedience just as You did.  Suffering will not be withheld from me because I am one of yours.

  Fear is all around me, in the media, in the economy, crime on the streets of our towns, horrible accidents, fires, floods, drought, fierce storms outside and within families.  Lord, nothing can separate me from You and Your love.  May I make this my first thought...not the final after everything else.